So the last week has been interesting in terms of training with a step up to 75KMS in running and additional daily sessions to maintain my optimal conditioning. It has been at this point in the past where the computer has said NO aka the body has thrown a tantrum and expressed displeasure in the form of pain. Prior to Gold Coast marathon I rationalised this injury with my professional brain and took the required rest to return to pain free motion. Prior to Singapore 4 months ago however I allowed it to be an excuse to stop my training completely leading to a sub-optimal performance. What was the difference between these two periods in my life (apart from a month in the USA & Mexico which involved way to much Tequila and PBR). It was a solid mindset that had the foundation of a deeply rooted goal.
Laying Groundwork
To explain my brain a little further – ever since I was a young fella I’ve always performed better with a deadline approaching. It was always easier to procrastinate and daydream rather than suck the lemon early which in hindsight would have saved a lot of early morning study sessions and sleepless nights. However when it came to the moment I would always get by because I had an end goal to work towards (passing an exam, performing well in a production or on the sporting field). Problem was that I didn’t realise that I was happy being content, playing it “safe” to survive rather than thrive. This wasn’t an issue at the time as things such as parties and progressing socially were more important to dedicate my time to.
The Beauty of Growing Up
As I have gotten older and more ambitious with my goals (I’d put olympic qualifying as pretty ambitious) the margin for error has gradually reduced which has meant focus becomes more imperative. Leading up to the Gold Coast Marathon the focus was laser pointed as it was my last chance to Qualify for Boston 2017 which I had proclaimed to everyone for two and a half years would be my 30th birthday celebration. Co-incidently I made my qualifying time of 3 hours by 37 seconds. Now I was immensely proud as only 2% of people to run a marathon will toe this line and I was now one of that select few but because it had come again without many “sacrifices” I took it for granted without knowing.
Is it Really a Sacrifice?
This takes us to Singapore when a niggley neural calf 8 weeks out ended up as an excuse to incoherently cut my training loads and increase my extra-curricular activities, mainly drinking and eating way to much. It wasn’t that I didn’t have a goal (In my head I wanted to run a 2:50 in Singapore) but there was no reason bigger than myself for having that goal. For the Boston Qualifying time the underlying drive was the thought that if I didn’t make the qualifying time that I would be letting down all those people I had proclaimed my intentions to…not just myself. Those people probably would have still loved me unconditionally if I didn’t make the time but it solidified and deepened to roots of the goal. For Singapore I didn’t have that as I had not deeper reason for running the 2:50 apart from a loose notion that it would signify progress. This allowed my conscious mind to make excuses up for not putting in the hard yards and thus my result was not ideal.
The Lightbulb Moment
Since that point in time 3 months ago a switch went off inside me again as the deadline of the marathon started beaming like a strobe light, again I’d say slightly because of the fact I’ll have a large cheer squad there and want to put on a good performance. More importantly though I really delved into my personal reasons for not just running but competing at a high level including my legacy, my hyper competitiveness and the dopamine and endorphin highs it provides. By having a greater knowledge of my motivations it allowed me to not be sidetracked by menial distractions such as injury, bad weather and tiredness that could again de-rail the Funk train. When planning your goals whether sport, health relationship, life or other take heed of this and determine the inner working behind your wants as to make them easier to attain.